"Shit"!!!! Why so much of "Expectations"?????

Expectations ...a simple word.Well I wouldn't say it is that simple.To make the matters worse spelling "E-X-P-E-C-T-A-T-I-O-N-S" is also not so simple.Top it up with the philosophy behind the word and also the way people put their everything for meeting those expectations.I am sure that I am not one of those.I really wonder why this word doesn't even sound or mean like a simple word,say "SHIT".Plain and simple.No two meanings to "Shit".No bloody philosophy to "Shit".It doesn't take much of an effort to "shit".I know right now I am talking "Shit" but I really can't help it.God!!! There is too many expectations.Mine,my parents',my friends',the whole world.Nobody wants me Shitting around.I am sure I am not Shitting Around.

I started reading some study materials.They sucked.I can't take education anymore.

Tried talking with some people and they sucked too.

Got a job,it sucks.

Studies studies and studies and those expectations

Can't take them yet can't reject them.

God knows what do I do with those expectations and I can't keep them hanging on my head for long.

Help...but dare you give me those talks.

Lost Somewhere...I don't know where

Been ages...and I really don't know what I am doing,where I am heading to,what will happen to me !!!!
Ain't got no job
Ain't got no money
I am heading out to nowhere
Life's a real misery.
Packing and unpacking and packing again and again unpacking.Thought of going home.Missed my train and then planned again and again changed my mind.Can't really make up my mind and can't really mind my mind.

The monsoon and my laziness,
The alcohol and the hangover,
The fights and the bruises,
The uppers and the flight of fancy,
The dreams and then waking up that they are not so real,
The lies and the after-effects!!!
There are lots to these lines then it seems and the irony is that I know it all and I still try not knowing it.
Completely out of touch and complete stranger to myself.
That's what have become to me.
I do love the isolation and don't regret a bit of it.
Keep on doing it and will do it again.
But maybe life will be on a better track soon....Till then........