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Getting irritated at work today.Not able to meet the target ,and still trying hard.

Often you learn so many things at work.Here I am learning quite a few new things.One of them is how people ditch you.I still have to master the art of deceiving people and also the art of convincing people.Having a tough time convincing people to take the bait.Many a times it is the other way round.You just can't think of a way to ignore some who just love to sit on your head.

Watched an AC/DC concert yesterday.At home of course.Just dramatising the whole scene.Someone had given me the CD few days back.finally I can say that I am not musically deprived.The raw power and evil combination of Bon Scott and Angus Young is insane.
Hopefully I will get some time to read some books now.Trying to get a copy of Chetan Bhagat's new one.Heard it is good.Tired of the monotony of life these days.Maybe I deserve it.........

Yesterday !!

Finally after quite sometime did some socialising yesterday.The usual bitching and drinking sessions.I feel quite relaxed and contempt with the way things are going these days.Though I don't have much of a social life nor the will to socialise ,I don't get bored like earlier.Office gives me that peace of mind which I was looking for all this while and its only work which I look forward to.

The night was fun.the usual suspects dealing with our doomed fate.remembering all those who were so nice to us(pun intended).Xavier's college and Malhar !!! The crazy days in college and those wild nights.Remembering college and cursing those moments when we were broke.Stealing a smoke during the break and bunking mostly all those lectures.Things were so different then.Maybe over the years we lost our innocence.We all have changed so much.No longer we have those music sessions and no longer we spend hours talking about those cool rock bands of the seventies.Maybe I got a glimpse of those days yesterday.
Apart from that nothing else is so happening in my life these days.No loving and no money.Remembered a line from Mr.Mick Jagger's Angie:

With no loving in our souls and no money in our coats
You cant say we are satisfied...................................

what I used to think...and what I really am

Been quite some time i have actually gone ahead and wrote something in my blog.I have not read too many books nor have I written anything.

As mentioned earlier was in Assam.Things have really changed.People have changed and I am back to the place I was before.Life at this moment have probably completed one full cycle.
Before going to Assam (all this while in B'bay) I used to feel that I was really cool.I had a perfect life.A perfect place to live in B'bay.I was a so called Townie.At least I used to feel like one.Had a girlfriend whom I used to adore (Die hard romantic speaking),a decent inflow of money(Thanks to the booming B'bay industries),great parties in the room (Galaxies of friends were always there for some fun).

Now i am back in the same state. Home (Assam) made me realise my priorities(At least that's what I feel now).The so called love life is no more.It has ceased to exist.Won't say she left me.Maybe love left me.No longer stay in town.I don't know whether I left that place or the place threw me out.Forget how it feels to chill out.No longer get time or get people to hangout with.I am not so cool anymore (maybe I never was..).Paradise lost? Not really!!!Only decent thing which happened all this while was getting a decent job (**Guardian angels are always there**).Maybe the realisation of roots was lost somewhere,but it's never too late.I used to think I had the perfect life till i realised that this is not what I want.